Being home alone, with Cael all day every day, I have thoughts run wild through my head. Although most of my day is spent trying to get this little boy to sleep in his crib for longer than 30 minutes. For some reason, he is going through a little bit of a phase where he doesn't want to nap in his crib. It might be because he isn't sleeping there at night yet. He has a bassinet that he has been sleeping in at night that is in our room. His bedroom is on the second floor of our house and with him still sort of waking in the middle of the night I didn't want to mess with the stairs. I do have to say though he sleeps through the night nearly every single night, so I can't complain too much. I just can't figure out how to get his naps to happen and to get them to last longer than 30 minutes 6 times a day. :/ This makes for a pretty long day most days because if you figure he is awake for 12 hours in a day, sleeps for roughly 3 hours during the day periodically, about 2 hours or so of rocking to sleep..that makes for um..yeah..not a whole of time to do much else...but TO THINK!
I love my job. I love how I get to love on my little boy every day. I get to see him discover new things (like his fingers and his toes,right now) and see his little brain at work. We are able to snuggle each morning and enjoy a quiet start to most days. Finally, I love how I don't have to answer to anyone, but my fogiving husband.
I feel like God allowed me the oppurtunity to have a career FIRST and then have my hearts desire of being a stay at home mom. Having a career for nine years really allowed me to experience so many things. My career pushed me out of my comfort zone often. It also taught me how ferverent prayer, pays off. I think I also was shown that "the grass is not always greener on the other side". I guess I needed to learn that before I took the plunge of staying home with Cael. I have never really been one to NEED a career. I know some women have that strong desire and are equipped to be in the working world, I am not one of those women. I was able to experience the working world first so that when I was given this beautiful oppurtunity of raising Cael, I would appreciate it that much more. My time in the working world has molded me to be the mother that Cael needs right now. I find myself asking
was my career demanding..absolutely... but so is motherhood.
Was my career frustrating..absolutely.. but so is motherhood.
Was my career rewarding..absolutely..and SO IS MOTHERHOOD!!! :0)
Isn't it wonderful how God's timing is perfect and how every moment of every day he is working out his perfect will.
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