Exactly One Year Ago...

I rolled over and had to use the bathroom at around 5:00am. It was one of those times when I didn't really want to roll out of bed. I had lots of emotions rolling through my head. All kinds of "What ifs" were just running rampant in my head! Today was the day we were scheduled to be at the clinic for a blood test. We have been anticipating this moment for so long. Was this 3rd time going to be different? How would we react if it was the same negative result we have heard before? Where do we go from here? But wait..what if it is positive? What if this time IS different? What if this is for real?

For some reason this time around I decided to take a pregnancy test before we went to get the blood test results. So early that morning when I was using the restroom I decided to use a pregnancy test. However after I "took care of business", I went back to bed. I was just about sick and in some ways I didn't WANT to know what the results were. I felt safe and secure with the unknown at that moment. I knew that the results on that test were going to change everything!! Of course my pessimistic heart was thinking through how I would handle the negative results that waited for me in the bathroom. Pete heard me get up that morning and come back to bed. Neither one of us fell back to sleep. We both just laid there in silence. After about 2 hours, he said "Are you going to go look at it?" Um...no...I mean..yes...I mean..no...um. So after a little bit of mustering up strength and taking lots of deep breaths I walked into the bathroom and found this...

I seriously couldn't believe my eyes. I said NOTHING! I was speechless. I carried it back to bed and handed it to Pete. No words were spoken but lots of tears were shed. Really?!?! Is this for real? Is this happening? This is not a dream right?

So we got ready that morning with very little words spoken. We both were in a state of shock and disbelief. We still wanted to hear the doctor tell us that the blood test of was positive before we proceed with this great feeling. So we went to my appointment that was 10:00am that morning. Then we decided to drive and sit in a Lowe's parking lot to wait for the doctor to call. We knew we didn't want to be driving down the interstate when the phone rang from the doctor (because we did that before and it was really bad.) So this time we decided to just sit and wait...and WAIT...and WAIT...and WAIT some more. We ended up sitting there for 3 long hours!! Finally at a little bit after 1pm my phone rang. My heart sank. A deep breath proceeded by a very long S I G H!! The news we have waited to hear from so long. The news that we have never EVER heard!

Exactly one year ago today...our lives changed..in a matter of minutes...FOREVER!
Thank you LORD JESUS for this MIRACLE!