Recovery Mode

The month of May was full of RECOVERY MODE on so many levels for our family.

 

After getting the news that our transfer attempt wasn't going to happen this time, I went into a recovery mode emotionally. This whole process is taxing on ones emotions, so when I had to change my thinking half way through the process it took a toll on me. 

 

Also at the beginning of the month of May, daddy and Cael got a bit of a bug. Cael had a low grade fever for about 3 days but never really amounted to much, which was good! So my boys were in a recovery mode from a little bug.   

 

Then a few weeks later, I got hit with the norovirus. Let me just tell you that this is a virus you NEVER...I mean NEVER...want to have.  I woke up on a Thursday feeling a bit strange. C and I went to the library that morning and to the grocery store. We came home for lunch and shortly after I put C down for his nap, it HIT ME...I RAN...yep..I ran...to the bathroom and proceeded to vomit everything from the tip of my toes. I took my temp and it was 102.5. I had no idea that I had had a fever. So I crawled into bed and prayed that C would stay asleep for a long while or at least until daddy got home from work.  The rest of the day went down hill fast! I started aching all over, my mid to lower back was in excruciating pain. I tried to get comfortable in my bed but it was nearly impossible. Later that night, around 8pm I called the First Nurse to get an idea of what might be wrong. She thought I had a kidney infection and felt that an ER visit was necessary. So we called my mom to sit C while he was in bed and we loaded up and went to the ER. I was in so much pain by this point. I just couldn't get comfortable. We arrived at the ER and were seen immediately only to find NOTHING! After 6 viles of blood they found nothing other then my white blood count was 14,000. Which meant my body was fighting something. She labeled it as a VIRUS and told me that it just needs to run its course. I was able to get some fluids in me, which I needed severely. Right before I was going to be discharged the nurse took my temperature. It registered at 104.4!! Yeah...104.4! This was even  after having some medicine in my system for 2 hours...and it was still that high.  It was quite scary, actually.

Little did I know that this was just the tip of the iceberg! The next 4 days were horrific. The four days consisted of me battling a fever for 102.5-103.8 (even with meds every 3-4 hours), groaning and laying in a fetal position! It was horrible. I have never been so sick in my entire life!!! After reading about all of my symptoms online, I discovered I had contracted this lovely NOROVIRUS. I had 8 out of the 9 symptoms....to a T!

So....mommy was in RECOVERY MODE once again in the month of May.

 

As the month ended and we all were WELL....I did some reflecting. 

If our transfer would have still been on last month....it would have fallen 2 days after my sickness escaped me. 

God knew that that sickness was going to occur, I believe! He was protecting us, I believe. I can't imagine having to get well AND anticipate the transfer. So God prevailed, once again. I don't know why I doubt his sovereignty. He has shown himself strong and faithful so many times to us, you'd think I would learn, but nope. I'm a slow learner maybe.

 

So that all leads us to where we sit now.

We went down to the clinic last Monday. I needed to be seen on day 2 or 3 of my cycle...so Monday was day 3. This appointment consisted of a scan to make sure that the lining of the uterus lining was thin...WHICH IT WAS (PTL) and to make sure that my ovaries were quiet...AND THEY WERE (PTL)! So its a GO for us to start this all again!

 

Right now, our transfer will be Friday, July 26th.

The crazy, GOD THING, about it all is that both of the doctors are out of the clinic for 2 whole weeks in the month of July. It just so happens that the 26th, my doctor will be back from his conference and they are making an exception for US!!!

Coincidence? Nope...definitely GOD!

I can't even begin to explain all of the emotions I have been feeling over the past two weeks. I have had some melt down moments and some moments where I feel full of anxiety. All because the transfer date was all contingent on when my cycle would start!! It is summer so our summers fill up fast. We like to plan things and we like to put things on the calendar. So as I started to think of "when will the transfer occur" and not having it nailed down....I was nearly beside myself!
SO...now knowing the DATE.....AND that they are making an exception just for us...I feel much more at ease. Also, I think the extra hormones last month are having a large effect on me these days.

We would appreciate prayer as we anticipate July 26th. We are both full of nerves, anxiousness, and peace. At times, the nerves and the anxiousness take over. Please pray that we would just continue to trust that God is at work and trust his timing with things. Please also pray that my body complies this time and all goes as planned!

 ~thank you ahead of time for all that prayed and continue to pray! We can not express how much this means to us.